This is my attempt to start writing again. I don't know how I am going to keep up with it as I can't even keep up with my life. But I miss reflecting and then writing it down (well typing in this case). I also miss the fact that my friends read and then leave comments. Rather egocentric with that part. But most of all, I think my friends know, I write to keep myself sane. To map all the thoughts that connect and those that contradict each other. To have a better understanding of situations and circumstances. Most of all to understand myself. A little bit to feed my ego. Sometimes I write to piss other people off because they pissed me off. Sometimes I write to feel powerful. But I realise my better writings are depressive ones. Though I am not really a depressed person, I just tend to sound so. But I would be lying to say I'm the happiest person you've ever met. I have my days. And I have my moments. Moments of glory, moments of shame, moments I'd like to flush myself in the toilet bowl, moments I'd like to capture on video but I can't and yes I have my blonde moments. But yea perhaps all I can attempt to do is write and stay sane.